As humans we are amazing and as women, we are magnificent. BUT, lately I’ve been struggling with body issues. I hate pictures of myself. I’m a small woman, yes, I know that. However, I’ve had two babies, the last being 14 years ago. So, I have the sagginess that comes with that. I’ve lost whatever butt I have, and it all hit me really hard when we went on vacation recently. I’m 37 and my self-esteem has dropped rock bottom. I take selfies with friends, husband or the kids and all I see are imperfections with my smile, my freckles, my teeth aren’t white enough, crow’s feet around my eyes, etc. I literally pick myself apart!
The real get me moment was when my husband was taking pictures of me playing with the kids in my bikini at the beach. I mean I was like OMG! Never again. Stretch marks, not tight skin and figure, which is nothing new but man I was floored! I want my kids to have pictures of us together in these moments, but I was so disgusted that I wanted to wear a sweat suit the rest of the time. I’ve always had that modo “no one knows me at the beach, so I don’t care”, never see those people again ya know? Well, I no longer feel that way.
As women we should be ok with our bodies, whether we have stretch marks, overweight, or whatever the case. I love to lay on the beach, sun bath and just take it all in but this has really hit me hard. I want to feel comfortable in my body. Everyone says “you’re so tiny, I would love to be that small”. Well, ladies it’s not that easy and add being really short to it and it’s even worse. I hate how little my ankles and calves are, nothing fits right, not even leggings. My arms are too long and skinny and just look awkward. My stomach and thighs are flabby and well we know what happens to the boob area after two kids and breast feeding. UGH!!!!! Like I said I’m just struggling so much lately.
What are your tips and tricks for boosting your self esteem?